ghostwritten poem

THIS IS A POEM. I DON'T KNOW WHY BUT SOMEHOW WHEN I WAS TRYING TO WRITE A FINAL FANTASY VII POEM A COUPLE MONTHS AGO, INSTEAD OF CHANNELLING YUFFIE OR SEPHIROTH (MY NORMAL PLAGUES) I CHANNELED CLOUD. WELL, HE WAS IN A MOOD. AND HE WROTE THIS POEM. IT IS A WEIRD POEM. CLOUD IS A WEIRD GUY. ITS ALSO KINDA DEPRESSING. BUT THIS IS JUST ANOTHER FORM THAT BISHOPHRENIA CAN TAKE... GHOSTWRITING. -Midgar

For Tifa
-by Cloud Strife (Midgar V)

If you ever really loved me
Which is bloody well unlikely
You would have seen past everything that I was
And you did not

If you ever really cared
I would have never left you
I would have stayed and tried to work through it
But you did not

In my arms you were so gentle
I never guessed it was a lie
When we woke up the next morning, you ran away to cry
But I did not

You told me it was because
You were never sure about me
Whether I was making love to you or her, when I closed my eyes
Niether was I

I snuck out of the ranch
In the dead cold of the night
On the one I bred for you, and fed for you, the one who could almost fly
Yeah, because you made me cry

I went to that place
Where we left her
I saw her eyes in the clear water, so pure and endless like the sky
Why did she have to die?

I loved you, really
I don't know what I felt for her
But I never told you, not on purpose, that it was you who lived the lie
I didn't want you to hurt me

How long is this gonna go on
How long will you make me run
How long before you chase me down and apologize for accusing me
Of taking advantage of you

Of lying to you

How long, mistrusting angel
Before you leave my past behind and come to me, to love me, the real me
I know I've died on you a few times

But I always missed you most.